|
pmpdady999
|
read my profile
sign my guestbook
Country: United States
State: California
Birthday: 2/27/1983
Gender: Male
Interests: Computers, outdoor activities (hiking, backpacking etc), surfing, talking politics, traveling, and overall enjoying life!
Expertise: Computers, genetics, and some political issues.
Occupation: Student
Industry: Engineering
Message: message me
Member Since:
1/6/2004
|
|
| So after a very long time, I finally find inspiration (and time) to update. I am tired, but I am not sleepy, and I feel compelled to be productive, and I suppose this falls into that category. Anyways, as I said, it has been a while. I suppose a lot of that has to do with the fact that I used this method to vent a lot of my frustration and pain, so I have associated those negative emotions with this outlet. Though I must not forget that I also said a lot of positive things here. And as a good friend once said, sometimes, the best thing is to make new memories. So here I go to try and cleanse this realm (but mostly just to update those who still read this).
Anyways, things are going very well. As most of you should know, I love my apartment! It is pretty darn amazing, and it is great living with Jon. And thankfully, we don't keep each other as late as we used to, joking around, but it is still a lot of fun.
Work is very busy, but it is good. I like what I do, and I love the people I work with. The only real downside is that I have to put in more overtime than I would like, and I don't get paid for it. But at least I enjoy it. It just kind of scares me how much some of the people seem attached to the company. I mean, a lot of people there work 6 or 7 days a week, and I wonder how they can do that. It isn't so much the hours but more the lack of time it seems they are spending with family and friends. I don't think I can regularly work 6 days a week, and I am not sure if that is going to be acceptable with the higher ups. But oh well, we will see.
Jen is also doing very well. We have been dating for about a month and a half, and it has been pretty darn great. I am not gonna lie, it was a little odd at first. Even now, my heart is still a little sore, but Jen has been great. I was terrified that I would just be using her to get over Kristen, but I am very glad to know that my feelings were/are legitimate. She is also the first girl who was a friend first before we dated, and I must say, it has worked out great. Rather than that awkward getting to know the other person stage, we were able to connect pretty instantly. It is a new experience, and I totally dig it.
(knock on wood) Things are going very well. It is a new change to be out on my own, but I like it. I really feel myself becoming independent and capable. And I like who I am becoming. I am excited about what the future holds. Have a great day and remember to ask yourself every day what you can be doing to make the world a better place!
| | |
| First off, here is the link to my game from last semester:
http://interactive.usc.edu/projects/games/20070107-intermedia.php
Mine is "Elementary Disaster." Note that you need a PC to play it. Sorry Mac users.
So yeah, Kristen was here this weekend and that was ackward to say the least. It hurt to see her, but it wasn't horrible. What sucked was that she wouldn't even acknowledge my presence even when there was just a few of us in a small room. While I was upset to see her, I was at least prepared to be cordial, but I guess she didn't want to. Funny how she always claimed she wanted to be friends still, but I guess this is pretty clear now she changed her mind. Not that I was particularly ready mind you, but in time, I thought we could have been friends. Pity. But I have to respect her decisions.
And yes, I do feel a bit bad about my last post. I realize that is was in pure emotion and not thinking too much about what was said, but at least it was honest feelings at the time. But I have a bad habit of not always thinking things through. Then again, the point of this is to really say whatever I am feeling at the time, so I guess I did an appropriate thing. But now I am not so sure I am making much sense. So lets change topics slightly.
It was painful just to know she was here, but not nearly as bad as in the past. And as soon as I knew she was gone, I felt better, and I have actually been in a pretty good mood. I am a tad upset because this week is quite busy with school and other stuff but oh well! Almost done! Finally! I have also been spending a lot of time with friends, which has been really good. Overall, things are looking pretty darn good. Now, if I could just stop staying up so late.... (It is hard to find the motivation when you don't have class til late afternoon!)  Have a great day!
| | |
| Fuck. Just plain and simply, fuck. For those who don't know, Kristen's parents pulled her from school, so she is back in the NW. I feel bad for her, but it has been very good for me, and it has helped me a lot. However, I just found out tonight she is coming to Snowball tomorrow (our annual dance Southside puts on for the school). I was dreading the event to begin with then I felt better knowing she wouldn't be there. Now, I am fucking terrified, and I don't know what to do. My heart is still extremely fragile, and I don't know how much it can take. Seeing her tomorrow is going to kill me. As much as I try, I am not even close to being over her. But not seeing her was helping a lot but now.... now I don't know what to do. And I can't miss Snowball, sadly, but I don't want to see her at all. Fuck. I hate being all emo and shit, but I seriously don't know what to do. Fuck.
| | |
| It is a little late, but merry Christmas everyone! I hope you all have a wonderful Christmas, and may God bless you all. Have a great day!
| | |
| This is the ultimate gift for men to get the significant other in their life for Christmas:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1dmVU08zVpA&eurl=
Have a great day!
| | |
|
